I set Daniel a reading comprehension his morning as one of his pieces of schoolwork for today, but instead he pulled out his diary and spontaneously wrote this. I have asked his permission to share it here because it may just help another person who has a sibling on the autistic spectrum to know that they are not alone.
Here's what he wrote:
6th November Tuesday. 2012
Tomorrow I'm gonna leave. This may sound weird but I HATE MY FAMILY! It all started March twelth on my birthday. My bro was nice. In fact my family was nice. But when I was three, IT started!
It was my bro. He hurt me. So everyday it happened. I run to my room and cry. Once I almost ran away but I got caught. So tomorrow I'll run away at 6 O'clock in the morning.
It is absolutely heartbreaking to read this. I have had a chat with Daniel and I do realise what he has to put up with. He has to be so understanding, patient and tolerant and I am so grateful to him that he is. I try to tell him that regularly. I wish there was someone who could help Josh more. In our area we have been waiting a year and a half now for a CAMHS appointment (and I doubt there is anything much they can do anyway), I have begged for more OT sessions as that is the one thing that we know does help but any sessions that the NHS can offer are few and far between (possible next session would be next Easter when ideally he needs weekly therapist input not just once or twice a year), we do not qualify for ANY respite help, we had to fight for a year and a half for a statement of Special Educational Needs and even with the statement they cannot offer Joshua any education without having to be sent miles away each day which I am not prepared to do. This is my child, not just a number on the system!
But I want Daniel to know...YOU ARE LOVED! YOU ARE PRECIOUS! Even Joshua adores you but he just doesn't always know how to show it. Please bear with us. We will keep working together to help Josh have more good days and fewer difficult days. Daniel you are so important to this family - always remember that.